I'm pretty sure my life's goal is to be on a teen soap opera

( And even if the voice comes back again/maybe there'll be no one listening )

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Somewhere along the line, I turned 100% into a character I created for rp... awesome...??

And I wouldn't mind playing again, but I kinda feel like the characters I was playing before didn't really fit.

Damn.

I need a pb for Cokie/Maggie.

Michelle T, while perfect-sauce, does NOT look 28. Cuz she's not.

SNORT. Sometimes I love my mom so much.

I recieved this Email this afternoon:

Apparently, my text message box is almost full so I need to delete some. I have texts from August ……and there is no delete all function. So I have to open each one and then delete. You saw Twilight Barbies last fall

I need to just record this somewhere before I forget. (I originally typed "summer".)

~ Greer: journal abut fear of mutant rapists. And how she wishes Kevin were around.
~ Marty: Write Leda oneshot. And placehold convo with Pete and Emily.
~ Andi: Do I want to do something with Spencer??? HMMMM... Well. I did a journal entry. But I should play him again soon.
~ Jim and Greer: library thread
~ Maggie: Journal entry about audition. And upcoming Hair open call. And maybe Grace if she gets less selfish.

YOUR THREAD HERE.

(I am trying to make time FLY by while I am in Newmarket, so please load me up.)

You have to imagine Professor Farnsworth's voice to get the full impact of that subject line. Sadly, I am not an incredibly old frail man so my voice just will not give you the same impact.

Tragic, I know.

Anyway! I AM GOING TO THE STRATFORD FESTIVAL!!!

Three weeks. Watching one of the premiere female theatre directors in Canada directing a Shakespeare play that I'm totally unfamiliar with but would like to know and probably fetching coffee and junk. Living in a Shakespeare saturated theatre town.

Hopefully it'll help me get a theatre job when I get back home. Hopefully I will... find some method of meaningful employment (*cough*freemoney!*cough*) so that I can actually act. Since that is all I want to do.

Is it wrong that I get jealous when I see Canadian actresses who are my age who are in tv shows?

Also, I tried to watch the Tyler Hilton webcast tonight but I kept thinking it was skype and catching myself from responding outloud. Clearly, webcasts are not for me.

11 days.

Damnit, I miss acting.

I think I posted months ago that it was all I wanted to do.

It's true.

Item 1: TWIST OFF CAP, MY ASS.

Item 2: Stupid friend being stuck in stupid Hamilton. Tho I am wearing my Blair Waldorf headband anyway.

Item 3: PENN BADGLEY, WHY DO YOU NEVER SMILE NICELY? YOU MAKE THIS RELATIONSHIPS PAGE THING DIFFICULT. FRIENDS OFF.

On one level, it is very sad that I come home from seeing a band and my first reaction is to blog.

On the other level, my roommate is in the bathroom currently, I need to wind down somehow and I get drunk off of a beer and a half.

Because I am 18 apparently?>?>

I am not skinny enough for alcohol to affect me in this way.

I feel that someone should pb me. I have been playing with my webcam far too much and have amused myself far too much. ALSO, my hair needs liposuction.

Also, I do not know if I have mentioned this, but I really REALLY enjoy bands with strong drummers. Drums are my kryptonite. And this band had a WICKED drummer. He could play three instruments (including his drum kit) ALL at the same time. At one point he played an accordion. At one point, he played lead guitar AND the drums while the lead singer played banjo. And the other member of the band? He could play ANYTHING. he played clarinet at one point. I was just so very impressed.

Good music inspires me.

I need to remind myself to (after I clean my room and finish my two assignments that are due this week) look up some of Joel Pleskett's music tomorrow. I will greatly appreciate him.

I also greatly appreciate being social and going out every so often.

And everyone who reads this.

... I'm not sure how to justify Howie having an apartment and not just crashing on random people's couches.

Hmm.

(Also, Kellan Lutz has proved to be the most hilarious pb thus far.)

So. I am far too tired to focus on anything real. (Stupid 10 hr day with no breaks. ZERO breaks.) So instead... I talk on Skype and try to figure out who to use as a pb for Marty's bitchy age up girlfriend Leda.

So I'm going to throw them up here together and consider.

Lauren Conrad
Rachel McAdams
Stacy Kiebler

I am so proud of myself, I feel I should pimp out what I have!

Check it, comment... ya'll know what to do, guys!

Jim Poirier

Greer Carson

Andrea Gentile

I am far too excited about this.

It took me FOREVER, but I did it!

http://maggiemason.insanejournal.com/

!!!

Though... I COULD have spent that time working on my last two profiles. Or making relationship posts. Or... walking to the mall.

Ehhhhhhh? This saves me money?

I miss the DUS. Or... to be more accurate, I miss having the ability to leave my computer turned on and walk away to go to the bathroom. And know it would be protected.

So the question is... do I ask the football player sitting next to me to watch my computer while I pee? Or... do I not do that because its awkward? But it took so long to get my computer opened and connected and stuff that I do not want to lose it! This is a dilemna.

Have I mentioned that there's a shitton of football players here? They've been here all week. Some player just said that they are the second best team in the country. It is so awkward because... well, last week in the building there was: 100 football players (or... enough players to make up a JV team and a varsity team), 2 boy ACE students and the 20 rest of us who were girls. That was it. So me and my two friends (the Kates) would walk down Student Street (a corridor in the education building) to get to the microwave and the hallway would just be lined with football players. And they would fall silent and sit there and look at us. And eventually they got to the point of catcalls and "Oh oh hell-los".

Clearly, they were starved for seeing females as they are with a bunch of other dudes all day. But part of me feels the catcalls were good for me. I am clearly the worse strong female ever.

I need to do a character check in for reals, but we'll see if I feel up to it during the next two hours. Yes, I still have two hours of this break left.

PS: I totally went to the bathroom and got one of the guys to watch my computer. SIGH.

During my two hour break today, I finished two age up profiles! Comment, critique, come up with relationships, whatever.

Greer Carson
Andrea Gentile

And now I go to a friend's house for a movie. I am less sad when I am busy. I will be back late tonight cuz I don't sleep anymore.

I promise I will reply to stuff soon.

But Derek will be back in Kingston in a little and I am hoping to be able to see him (he will be getting a hotel room? Maybe? I don't know...) so I would like to get my homework done before he comes back.

On our first night in Newmarket, Derek and I went to a Chinese food buffet. ... And it was awful. Everything tasted the same and I spent FIFTY-ONE DOLLARS on it. I remember loving this place when I lived in Newmarket. I went there for my sixteenth birthday, Karen and I took our cast of our Cabaret there after our postering blitz.

And this time it was awful.

When I left Newmarket, I just sort of dropped everything and ran. There were a lot of things left unfinished. And I think because I never wrapped anything up, I never dealt with Karen or James or finished Queen B's last show or was in a mainstage at Huron or... well, a lot of things.

And because so much was left unfinished, I think I expected that it would just sit there and remain unchanged. I know it's been six years and stores shut down and things move and new cooks come in and new things are built, but... It never changed in my mind. So it wouldn't change in real life, right?

I was disappointed about the Newmarket practicum. But I was also excited. It was a piece of home. Something to hold onto, even if was from before. Except that it's changed. Reid's Dairy is closed. Mainstreet Theatre Company is gone. Spotlight Theatre (where we produced our second show!) is gone. And what if everything I remember being good from before wasn't actually as good as I remember it?

I know that this too will pass. Things will get better. I will find something I like in Kingston and Newmarket and they will be home enough and it is only for 8 months. But still. For now I am just sad. It'll be harder when Derek leaves tomorrow.

(Though Wonderland was a lot of fun. And Rock and Roll Diner was still there in Newmarket, even if it was a little sketchy. And the people in Kingston are very friendly and they are allowing Derek to stay here tonight despite their "no overnight guests" rule... even if today was all about HEMORRAGING money. Bright side.)

I cannot handle actually thinking. Or doing anything other than giggling about my musical which was put on by 8 and 9 year olds tonight. (It involved a boy band singing a BSB song.)

So, rather than trying to reply to anything and failing miserably, I will respond to everything tomorrow. And in the meantime!:

Name one of my characters (present), and I'll tell you the inspiration(s) behind their initial conception, whether they be real-life people or fictional characters.